so...

i've discovered the secret to the world.

i've just had one of my top five life experiences. I know i'm only twenty, i'm young, stupid, and my pre-frontal cortex hasn't even developed all the way. what the fuck do i know about anything? but honestly this night has just inspired me so much. 

the night started out as many a night before it has. I got off of work and was looking to just get fucked up. i wanted to just forget about everything man. i've been so so so so so so so so stressed with just everything (almost ;).

so i went back to the dorm, convinced brad to go out with me, and headed over to jens. we chilled there with kashi and abby, drank a little bit, but we were waiting for my friend jables to finish up what he was doing so we could meet up and go to this highlighter party. 

we end up at this party, socialize with some new friends, and then we head over to amandas for some "relaxation."

we go to her attic, which is awesome. it's just such a chill place to hang out at. i mean the place is set up so that this kind of epicness is bound to ensue. it starts out a little busy and crazy, brad and i and our friends are singing a god damned margot song, but then some people thin out. head home. bed time has been called for those not chosen for this once in a lifetime experience.

but anyways the group now has become myself, jables, christina, justin, scales, britt, mike, and some guy i can't remember his name for the life of me :/

i've known justin and jables for awhile now, scales and britt i met a couple days prior, but for the rest of the group i met that fateful evening.

continuing on, justin had just ended a relationship and was looking for advice as for what to do. we all went around the room sharing our two cents and our life stories. 

that led to question after question posed by the group. 

it was just so fucking ridiculously awesome that 8 quasi-strangers could just sit down and spill their guts out and just shoot the shit back and forth for what seemed like a day. the time-expanding trick my brain played on me was not a defense mechanism to fight boredom, but was just the only way that my body could even comprehend trying to absorb everything that was happening.

as far as conversations i've had with friends (whether of the close, long-standing variety or of the new, freshly-picked friends) it was my second favorite.

my first was spent outside of ole stu west with a very special person.

So, back to my main point. i've discovered the secret to the world. 

sort of......

looking back at this experience, i feel so different. i have so many things going through my head right now.

if a group of kids can sit around and just get along so well just blathering on about stupid, bullshit, childish, pseudo-psychologic, egotistical relationship advice, why can't the rest of the world just relate to each other?

why can't the rest of the world just listen to everyones problems/advice/well wishes/criticisms , and just be okay with that?

why can we be okay with people on certain aspects of life, but we torture and murder them for another?

why can't the world just be okay with itself?

god, i'm having trouble even trying to come up with the right words to express all the things/ideas/feelings/emotions/people/thoughts just flying around, my head right now.

i'm going to put it this way. 

last night i saw a glimmer of world peace. even though it was the smallest, most insignificant speck of nothing. it was there none-the-less. it wasn't insignificant to me. it has forever changed my life. 

if you're reading this, first of all thank you for showing the courteousness to just check out what i'm up to.

secondly, i want you to do somethings for me...

get out there, i want each and everyone of you to have a similar experience.

also, just be kind. i know this is highly hypocritical coming from me, i know you all know what kind of person i am. i'm an asshole, i'll be the first to admit it. i realize this, i've been trying for so long to excrete every fiber of hate from my body, 

but i've been too weak to do it.

that's why i want you to. 

i want to see this change your lives if only in the smallest ways. i want you to not litter (even if it's just a gum wrapper). i want you to smile at complete strangers (even if only to make their day the tiniest bit brighter). i want you to not waste (even if it's easier to leave your phone charger plugged in all the time, or to leave your computer in sleep mode all night, or to just throw that pencil away because the little clip thing on the side of it broke off and it's harder to carry in your pocket). i want you to hug a friend if they seem down (even if they say no). i want you to not judge. people are people and just that, nothing more, nothing less, until you actually get to know them. guys, i want you to pick a flower and give it to a girl (just to see her smile). girls, i want you to write a guy a letter (just to let him know exactly how you feel for him {even if you're "just friends"}). i want you to complement someone you don't even know (just to maybe start a conversation).

i want you to love eachother, unconditionally.

but what the fuck do i know?

i'm just a kid.

don't listen to this.

just keep doing the same things you have been doing.

fuck it.

we'll just all have one hell of a going  away party when the world starts burning to the ground.

remember people, it has to start somewhere. whether we planting the seed for peace or whether we're lighting the match for war.

it's all got to start somewhere.